Yesterday I went shopping with one of my friends, shopping is not a favorite of mine anymore. There was this woman, she would have to be a size 16, and she was absolutely stunning. She came out of the dressing room, in a lovely red dress.
I usually don’t speak to people that I don’t know in public, but for some reason I was compelled to walk up to her, and tell her how beautiful she was. Words came out like vomit, and we talked about gaining weight and learning how to walk around in a new body.
and as we were finishing up talking she told me "I’d be selfish if I didn’t share my curves"
“After my mom died she ate my father up completely. She would have hated it. Every minute of his life since then has been marked by her absence, every action has lacked dimension because she is not there to measure against. And when I was young I didn’t understand, but now, I know, how absence can be present, like a damaged nerve, like a dark bird. If I had to live on without you I know I could not do it. But I hope, I have this vision of you walking unencumbered, with your shining hair in the sun. I have not seen this with my eyes, but only with my imagination, that makes pictures, that always wanted to paint you, shining; but I hope that this vision will be true, anyway.”—The Time Traveler’s Wife. - Audrey Niffenegger
“I don’t want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can’t think again. Not ever again.
I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.”—The Perks of Being a Wallflower.
“It’s kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don’t need an hour in front of a mirror. It just happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can’t. It doesn’t happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me.”—The Perks of Being a Wallflower.
“There is a sadness in this world, for we are ignorant of many things. Yes, we are ignorant of many beautiful things — things like the truth. So sadness, in our ignorance, is very real. The tears are real. What is this thing called a tear? There are even tiny ducts — tear ducts — to produce these tears should the sadness occur. Then the day when the sadness comes — then we ask: “Will this sadness which makes me cry — will this sadness that makes me cry my heart out — will it ever end?” The answer, of course, is yes. One day the sadness will end.”—Twin Peaks (via misswallflower)
I've been following you and your photography for a couple of years now, but lately I've been visiting your tumblr every single day.
I don't know you personally and I've never talked to you before, but I'm preety sure you're a lovely and gorgeous person, inside and out. While I've never did something drastic, I'm endlessly struggling with my weight. Some days I feel great, some days I want to eat the whole fridge, only because I'm feeling down, or bored, or lonely, or empty (but not phisically so). I admit that I have a problem, but I use every little excuse to eat and eat. I feel uncomfortable when I sit, my jeans look tight and my handles are too noticeable. Sometimes I try to hide myself by putting my purse or my coat on my lap...I'm tired of doing this. Emotionally and spiritually tired.
Visiting your tumblr every day gives me hope. I think you're really beautiful, you're doing great and you will do great in life, too. I hope with all my heart that you'll keep fighting, just like I try to, to achieve whatever you want. Because you can and you will.<3
I'm sorry that I can't explain myself in words well enough. I just wanted to show you my support for a long time, and now it seems like just the right time.
The best of wishes to you. Keep being the dreamer you are.
I know what it’s like to just want to eat until you can’t even stand it anymore. I know what it’s like to try and cover yourself at every possible angle. We just have to remember that these moments in our life are not what we are made of. They are simply things that we must conquer to find true happiness.
I sincerely wish that happiness finds you, and that you are healthy and strong enough to welcome it with open arms. <3
you are a beautiful person inside and out. please don't ever change. maybe the eating disorder wans't all bad, because it made you such a great person. i just wish you could see that it doesn't matter what size you are. you are just a beautiful person and no one can take that away from you.