some days i can wake up, i can go into the kitchen, i can shower, eat breakfast, and get ready. some days i can do this without a sickening feeling my stomach. i can drive my twenty minute commute to work and i can listen to music and not a single thought will be filled with sickening worry, and shame.
have you ever really cried? have you ever felt the tears just release from your eyes and feel the sickness of all your sins at the back of your throat? the more you try to stop, the more the tears are released.
a huge part of recovery is forgiveness. the ultimate healer. the hardest thing to do. you have to not only forgive the people who hurt you, who destroyed you, who changed you - you have to forgive yourself, the most important person.
some day i’ll be there. but i won’t pretend like i don’t struggle, and i won’t tell you that it’s easy, but it’s possible, and that’s what matters.
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